Visualize.Us

The earth below us

The sky above us

The people around us

The songs inside us

Thoughts we shared

Beautiful memories we have

The hope between us

Visualize us. Remember us

The one that I miss the most

Everyday in every step of this life

The hope in me despite past failures

The every tears I cried

The green color in my darkest path

The answers, I know you are

And I hope you are

Understand, my incomplete

Inside my weakness and lack of understanding

I do love you

I love you

I may not the one you expected

Selfish, independent, and persistent

Understand, accept me

I know you do

Gently words

Visualize me. Keep me

I did believe, I belong to no one

I did

Restricted, limited those I avoided

Until you came along

Faraway from easy path

Nothing worth while is easy

If you keep me, you will know

Where my heart is

Remember me. Remember us

I know I can count on you

Build me. Build us. Sanctuary

Guide me. Guide us

Understand, I am is what I am

Not perfect

Just like us

And I am apologizing

That is why we will try forever

to Visualize… Us

Ayu Putrinda Kurnia. Aug 20, 2012. 10.32am. listening: To Build a Home - Cinematic Orchestra

Cul-de-sacs

I have seen you, years

I labeled you as anonymous

We were strangers

You were standing in blank spot

I was there, smiling in the shadow

I have met dead-ends

Broken hearts, bittersweet symphony

I barely remember your name

You were never there

In my life, you're just a dreamy fog

I don't guess life

Still, it surprise me

It broughts you again

To my blue life, that almost fainted

What are the odds?

Its too soon to be happy

Too bitter to deny

Don't blame me for questioning

Is it smile or tears, that you'll bring

Or is it another cul-de-sac?

Oh, these walls

These invisible walls that I built

Protect me

From my own feeling

That destructive form called l.o.v.e

Oh, these walls

Blind me from what I see

Silence me from what I hear

You...

I don't need anymore dead-end

Keep your words, keep them

If it's not for me..

Ayu Putrinda Kurnia. Oct 16th, 2011. 8:25pm. tune: Turning Tables by Adele

cause we speak in silence every time our eyes meet

you!

pause. I think I lost in words

you! again.

one annoyingly happy creature

smile through analyzing eyes

you!

rewind. I remember you,yes I do

a man with bright sky written on his face

you! again.

who always talk in silence language

every time our eyes meet

you!

play. We were vomiting words,finally

a broken silence, a five seconds of sunny smile

in cloudy November

you! again.

captured few of my heart euphoria

which,I denied

I!

pause. a 20% normal,a 80% prestige

a bitter heart, abandoned affection

captured you in her bitter smile

which,her denied

I!

rewind. broken in uncountable times

a fearless dreamer who fear her own heart

not the failure,she fears

tiresome, of looping heart affection

I!

play. remember you in her everyday prayers

she talks in silence language

her prestige thinks faster than sound

her hope is not to hope

she sits,waiting. you

she's in denial but in hope

she's apologizing

in pink February

she's watching. you,in colorful forms

she's patiently waiting your smile

you and sunny smile,her ultimate favorite

she,looking at past times and misses

every single thing you ever did that bothered her

the annoyingly happy of silence spoken words

every time their eyes meet

yet,she wears her hidden sweetest smile

and humming

"Kamu. Aku tak akan mengejarmu. Setiap sudut semesta memantulkanmu. Kembali." :)

 

xx, Ayu Putrinda Kurnia 13.02.11 20:16, tunes: Nothing Like You and I by The Perishers

Sharp!

I stand there,did not talk

They stared and wondered

They whispered

With sharp silence words

I smiled,and talked

They smiled

Wearing suspicious eyes

With indescribable fake plastic smile

I go right

They go left

Still whispering motives

With sharp silence words

I'm here

Still smiling with patience in my hands

I recall,"that's okay"

Over and over

More they talked

More I gained strength

I believe life is fair

And I believe in kindness

They talked

With sharp silence words

I smiled

With the most sweetest smile

And recall,"that's okay. I'll get cut but I'll be perfectly fine."

:)

xx, Ayu Putrinda Kurnia 30.01.11 08:56