What's the use?

Destiny

Or is it just some kind of any other life jokes?

I used to have my eyes on you

Put my heart and expectation

Into whom I expect you to be

You used to be my hope

When I was little

Don't you know oh don't you know

That I have always my eyes on you

Baby oh dear baby

I grew up and I met you

Knowing you 180 degrees

From what I expected, that's just too..

Disappointed

There are goods in you

I saw that, I feel it

But somehow that wasn't enough

I need your sincerity, your will

To love..

What's the use I'm being here

Right beside you, be with you

All the time that you need me to

What's the use of me here

Hearing you soaring other women's name

What's the use of me waiting

Waiting you to change, into fully blooming

I'm standing here, oh dear

At the end of the road

No more..no more

If you hear me saying jokes

That's the truth, realize that

Dear baby...

Oh what's the use..what's the use

I'm not an option

I am your destination

I am what I am

If you're looking for perfection

You may took the wrong direction

I am no close to perfection

If you stay this way

I'll be gladly to say...

FAREWELL

to you, my dear Saturday lately :)

Ayu Putrinda Kurnia. Dec 4th, 2011. 12:48am. Tune: Best Thing I Never Had - Beyonce

DAMN RIGHT !!

So I hope you see me walking down the street, looking gorgeous. 

I’ll dress up, I’ll put on my hottest jeans, my best shirt, 

and I’ll do my hair and makeup just right. 

I hope you see me walking down the street holding onto his hand. 

I’ll even walk right by your house and smile right before he kisses me. 

Why you ask? 

Because once, just once...

I want you to see what you’re missing :)

Let me Let YOU go

Here’s what I’m going to do:

I’m going to stop dwelling. 

I’m going to stop watching the phone. 

I’m going to stop looking for you. 

I’m going to move on. 

I’m going to meet people. 

I’m going to live. 

I’m going to forget all the nights I spent wishing you were here. 

I’m going to forget the times that it was just us. 

I’m going to forget the things that shouldn’t have happened. 

I’m going to forget all the times I opened myself up to let you in, to only get hurt in return.
I’m going to forget how I felt about you. 

Instead, I’m going to subconsciously wait. 

If you really want me, if you miss me, if you can’t breathe without me, you’ll know. 

You’ll ring. You’ll text. You’ll visit. 

And if you drift, if you don’t call, if there’s no texts, if there’s no visits, I’ll know. 

I’ll know it was never meant to be. 
And I will continue moving on. And I’m going to walk tall.

But in between everything I will forget, 
I won’t forget the lesson I’ve learned. 

I won’t forget the feeling of loving someone. 

I won’t forget the feeling of thinking I’m loved. 

And I will certainly not forget 
the hell I was put through to learn all this, 

to become a better person..

idareyoutoclickthis

"You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

And you over think
Always speak cryptically

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white

You don't really want to stay, no

But you don't really want to go..."

*Katy Perry

"Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life...

Can't get no love without sacrifice...

If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well...

A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell..."

*MIKA